Yeah, I remember those old slip and slides–cheap summer fun! Those and the old hose and sprinkler! Nowadays, to appease the average pre-teen, it’s all about the fancy water parks. Geez!
Anyways, I digress. My road has once again become rocky, eating has been way off track and exercise non-existent, but this time, I think I know at least why. You see, as I work the OA steps, it’s like doing work on yourself, which means coming face to face with some realities. And the realities are–I am an emotional wreck! I used (and still use) food to suppress any strong emotion–to block it out. Now,as an adult, I can realize how totally f*&cked up that is!
I really don’t know how to handle some emotions well, especially anger and resentment. And those, my friends, will eat you up–literally! Good thing I am also in therapy, because this sh$t is tough! There are reasons I blocked them out in the first place, you know??
But today (and “for today” is OA’s motto, practically), things are well, food is on track, and thoughts are (mostly) positive. I hope to get some exercise in today, and I plan to continue to make good food choices for the rest of the day. I will also start using my tool of writing more when an emotion or experience arises that I don’t know how to deal with.
So, put away the slip n slide for now–it’s just too cold anyway!